--Original published at Kealey's PSY105 Blog
For this post, I watched Elyn Saks’s TED Talk on her experience with her sever mental illness. In her lecture, she shared quotes from her early personal recounts describing her struggle with schizophrenia. Her stories of delusions and hallucinations of demons and paranoia are unsettling. She recreates the way she would speak when she had an episode. Dark, ominous messages about death and torture escaped her mouth in incoherent and disturbing short phrases. She recalls wanting to leave the Yale library to go to the roof because she believes it is the only place she feels safe. Saks then describes the torment of being restrained against her will at the hospital. The way the doctors treated her seem inhumane, what we would consider malpractice today. It is heartbreaking to hear her describe her quest to wean herself off her medication. She wanted to prove that there wasn’t anything wrong with her, she didn’t believe in her illness. To her disappointment, the psychotic episodes and imaginary demons returned with vengeance and she was faced with the fact that she needed to accept her schizophrenia.
I cannot imagine what it is like to be someone who struggles with an illness like this. Being in a nightmare with demons and murderers out to get you is scary enough, but I imagine being schizophrenic is very similar, only you are not able to wake up. People with schizophrenia must feel trapped, not just mentally but physically too. Saks’s message is inspiring because she did not fall into a life controlled by her mental illness, she overcame it. She attributes her success to her treatment and support network. Unfortunately, stories like hers is unattainable compared to the thousands of convicts and homeless people that are mentally ill. Much of the homeless has a mental illness and they are still marginalized, avoided, and ignored. Maybe if these people had access to the resources that Elyn did, they wouldn’t be in the position they are in now, and their demons wouldn’t drive them to do things like committing crimes. Society as a whole would benefit to continue taking strides towards understanding and accepting mental illness and working together to give access to treatment and medication to all who need it, no matter their social status.
